A few sundays ago I was taught a wonderful message in Relief Society. It was on being whatever you want to be. & doing what you want to do. It serioiusly gave me the chills. {chills=spirit} I'll be honest, I am not the most active person in church. Yes, I go every sunday, but I don't have a strong testimony. BUT the past few weeks I've been trying so hard to see if I can gain one. I want to know for myself if the LDS church is true. If what I've been taught my whole life is true. I've questioned it for about a year, but never actually taken the time to pray to god to find out. ANYWAYS OFF TOPIC! Okay, what I was going on about was I felt the spirit really strongly. Like it kinda took over me for a second. I felt happy, despite the fact that earlier that day I wasn't. What I wanted to blog about was taking chances.
When I moved to West Virginia I knew no one. Not a soul. It was quite the exhilerating experience. I was taking a chance on being miserable for a year. BUT I had a positive attitude and felt good about the decision to move. Whilst in WV I really grew up. Maybe no one can tell from the outside, but I felt a change in myself. It taught me REAL independence. Not just moving a couple hours away (previously moved to Rexburg for a while) but being legitimetly far far away from anyone I knew. I found myself when I was there. (YES I spent many a night alone) I also got mostly rid of my anxiety. Before I went there I was terrified of things. Terrified of meeting new people, terrified of guys, terrified of a lot of silly things that a person shouldn't think about. Luckily I got over that when I was living there. I am so thankful to god for that. I became way more active in the church and enjoyed getting to know all of the wonderful people in my ward.
ANYWAYS I ALWAYS GO OFF ON TANGENTS!
Anyways guys, through taking chances I've become a better person. I've taught myself to not be afraid of LIVING!!! I went to NYC twice! I flew all over actually, it was quite a blessing. I got to see many different parts of the U.S. and I loved every second of it. Since being home in Utah i've taken A LOT of chances. Things I wouldn't have normally done, I've started doing. Talking with people that I wouldn't have ever thought of talking to, learning things, going to institute. etc etc.
Anywho, all I'm trying to get at is to take chances. Don't be afraid of the outcome. Talk to people who you want to talk too, go places you wanna go to, DO what you want to. Don't listen to anyone but yourself (and maybe god if you are religious :) ) LIVE LIVE LIVE! I may not always be 100% positive but I try my hardest not to let negative things bother me. I mean I still get so angry at certain people that drive me crazy, but I don't let it get to me! Because they are not deciding my happiness for me! I am! I am. (repeat the second part in cheesy calm voice)
Anyways, if you don't think anyone loves you in this world, just know that I do. Even if I don't know you. Because there's too much hate to go around. I just decided that right now, I'm going to love everyone!!!!!!!!!!!
I can do that guys. I can.
BYE BYE FOR NOW!
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