Whatever I want to be.

A few sundays ago I was taught a wonderful message in Relief Society. It was on being whatever you want to be. & doing what you want to do. It serioiusly gave me the chills. {chills=spirit} I'll be honest, I am not the most active person in church. Yes, I go every sunday, but I don't have a strong testimony. BUT the past few weeks I've been trying so hard to see if I can gain one. I want to know for myself if the LDS church is true. If what I've been taught my whole life is true. I've questioned it for about a year, but never actually taken the time to pray to god to find out. ANYWAYS OFF TOPIC! Okay, what I was going on about was I felt the spirit really strongly. Like it kinda took over me for a second. I felt happy, despite the fact that earlier that day I wasn't. What I wanted to blog about was taking chances.

When I moved to West Virginia I knew no one. Not a soul. It was quite the exhilerating experience. I was taking a chance on being miserable for a year. BUT I had a positive attitude and felt good about the decision to move. Whilst in WV I really grew up. Maybe no one can tell from the outside, but I felt a change in myself. It taught me REAL independence. Not just moving a couple hours away (previously moved to Rexburg for a while) but being legitimetly far far away from anyone I knew. I found myself when I was there. (YES I spent many a night alone) I also got mostly rid of my anxiety. Before I went there I was terrified of things. Terrified of meeting new people, terrified of guys, terrified of a lot of silly things that a person shouldn't think about. Luckily I got over that when I was living there. I am so thankful to god for that. I became way more active in the church and enjoyed getting to know all of the wonderful people in my ward.

ANYWAYS I ALWAYS GO OFF ON TANGENTS!

Anyways guys, through taking chances I've become a better person. I've taught myself to not be afraid of LIVING!!! I went to NYC twice! I flew all over actually, it was quite a blessing. I got to see many different parts of the U.S. and I loved every second of it. Since being home in Utah i've taken A LOT of chances. Things I wouldn't have normally done, I've started doing. Talking with people that I wouldn't have ever thought of talking to, learning things, going to institute. etc etc.
Anywho, all I'm trying to get at is to take chances. Don't be afraid of the outcome. Talk to people who you want to talk too, go places you wanna go to, DO what you want to. Don't listen to anyone but yourself (and maybe god if you are religious :) ) LIVE LIVE LIVE! I may not always be 100%  positive but I try my hardest not to let negative things bother me. I mean I still get so angry at certain people that drive me crazy, but I don't let it get to me! Because they are not deciding my happiness for me! I am! I am. (repeat the second part in cheesy calm voice)
Anyways, if you don't think anyone loves you in this world, just know that I do. Even if I don't know you. Because there's too much hate to go around. I just decided that right now, I'm going to love everyone!!!!!!!!!!!
I can do that guys. I can.

BYE BYE FOR NOW!

Guys fashion

Okay. So basically sometimes I see guys and think to myself, man that guy would be so much more attractive if I could dress him. Am I the only one who thinks that?? I mean seriously, this is probably the most shallow thing, but the way guys dress makes them way more attractive.
Here are some examples of the type of things I love guys wearing

Plato's Closet

I'll admit it. I forgot about Plato's for a second. But then, I went the other day, and remembered it.
I like it.
A Lot.
I bought this cute dress for only 6 dollars!!! And I bought an equally cute dress (pictures probably tomorrow, as I'm wearing it to church) for 6 dollars as well! YYEEEEE!

 haha I liked it in infared.

P.s. paying your tithing is good. I payed my tithing for the first time in literally months.... and the week after I get a full time job working at an awesome preschool/daycare. Happy happy me.

Honesty

Okay ladies. I have a question. I'm not perfect, and definetly don't know all the answers in life. So I have a question for you about honesty. Is it better to be up front with a person and tell them how you feel and get it over with (just to be on the same page with the person?) or is it better to just go on with life not knowing? I'm honestly confused about somethings in life and I am sick and tired of not knowing. Its wasting my time, and energy. I already think I know the answer (and its not good) but I want to know for certain. Would it be a mistake to be totally honest with a person and tell them how I feel??? E#RET#^Y^ I've never done this guys. I'm not the type of person that tells someone else my feelings. Only like three people hear me tell my feelings. Thats why I've never done anything ever! Because 1. I'm too chicken, and 2. I'm too afraid of what the other person might say. (are those two things the same thing??)
Anyways, I'd love some feedback.

Am I being a silly junior high aged girl right now??
Cauase I feel like it.
Anyways, Love you all.

Compliments

So, today at work a fellow co worker made me feel so good. Its so funny how when someone compliments you, it really does make you feel better! I always feel gross at work because I hate having to wear a uniform, but today my co worker was like no matter what you wear you always look so cute! I know, its the silliest compliment but it made my day! I'm going to make a goal to compliment at least ten people a day. Wanna join?
I promise when you compliment someone it makes you feel better yourself! It will make the inside of you,  a more beautiful person! Does that make sense??
Just try it.
I'm going to.

Stay the loveliest of Lovelies.
P.s. I will blog lots more next week. This week is super busy for me.